Butterflies & Pink Grass

The world just lost an angel.

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

July 29th 1937 – Dec 22nd 2009

Grandma passed away last night at about 6:30pm. I have a gaping hole in my chest. And every other thought is one of her that makes my throat close and eyes well with tears.

Thank you for being the strongest woman in the entire world Grandma. You saw the best in every one and every situation. They way you lived your life will forever be the model for mine.

I hope where you are now is beautiful. I miss you every second.

Lack luster.

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

winter break is almost here.. stoked.

Im starving

and tired.

that's all I got for you today.

Friday, November 6, 2009

So why not?
I’ve been a lot of a recluse lately and I admit it openly. So here’s an honest effort update:
School’s all right, math aside I’m getting on nicely. I need adderall, BAD. I’ve only taken one test the past 4weeks (in math) and I should have had at least 4 or 5 under my belt by now. Gah. I’ll follow through though; I can’t waste mom’s money like that. Work is spectacular; I think I’m the luckiest girl in the world, getting to work with such an amazing group of people. And, yes, I finally waitress! Making tips and sitting pretty. I also have a car now, I cute old little Subaru GL (1986) Erin (brothers girl) went on an adventure to pick it up at my Cousins house in Spokane a week ago or so. I still am waiting for Kevin (2nd cousin) to send me the title so I can renew the tabs and registration. I’ve only been driving it to work and back witch isn’t too risky, not a ticket I couldn’t easily talk myself out of. Mom already got a parking ticket, hah. I’ve been going through a lot of personal changes, battles even. I don’t think it’s a bad thing, I really kind of like it, all the change. I’ve been eating meat for the past few weeks and it is spectacular. Don’t ask me why, I just think I needed some variation in my day-to-day routines. Bikram yoga is making life a brighter place to live. Among other things, let’s just say I’ve been stepping out of the box lately. I really miss all my friends though, I feel like I’m missing a big part of myself. Between school and work I don’t have much time, but I’m really feeling the need to sit with my loves and chitchat about anything and everything.
Well this was a sorry attempt it seems looking at this puny paragraph, my apologies.

here, because I'm a firm beleiver that you can tell alot about a person if you know what music they're listening to....so heres a list of whats in my ears every day (A need to hop on the ball on the cd burning collective. I WONT LET YOU GUYS DOWN IM IN I JUST NEED TO SEE YOU!
Songs: Cheap Trick, Heaven Tonight. The Rolling Stones, Wild Worses and Moonlight Mile. THIS, Conspiracy. Acid Bath, Dead Girl, old skin, graveflower... (all Acid Bath really, been on a big kick lately). Au Rivoir Simone, Tell Me.
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peace dudes

rough draft..

Monday, October 26, 2009

Hi guys, sorry it’s been a minute. I haven’t found much time or oomph to update these past few months. Much has changed; I’m back in school, the leaves are changing colors summer is as gone as ever, I’m in a new apartment, I’m eating meat, and for the first time in a very long time, I’m single. With nobody waiting on my horizon, keeping me company, I’ve pretty much affirmed my independence and set it high in my sights to be all I need. Bring my expectations down a little bit, for everything. It’s been a struggle. For as far back as I can remember I’ve been chasing time, getting ahead of myself and setting myself (and others) up for disaster.

Time has flown past me in the blink of an eye. I feel like I just celebrated new years last weekend…but it’s just around the corner again.

I’m running out of time to update and I’m doing my best to scratch your guys’ itch for wondering what is going on with me.

First things first, A: Suzye? Randy? I have a car and I intend to use it to come see you as soon as possible. I miss you like mad, and a serious catch-up date is in order, and I need to see your new pad!

B: To all my lovelies that are reading this…I need you. Friendship is something that I need now more than ever before; I need to be close with you guys so I don’t lose my freaking mind with all this change that’s afoot.

So there’s that. I can’t settle down enough to make a more strapping post, I’ll give it another shot later.

I love you guys

Waiting game update...

Thursday, July 2, 2009

I have been getting the urge to pinch myself often, to make sure I’m actually awake and not just having very convincing dream. I’ve wished for summer for what seems for so long that I hardly can remember a time when I wasn’t wishing I could just fast forward to right now. With the 4th of July staring right at me from around the corner; Suzye and Randy and Nick all together living in Gig Harbor; Bekah’s graduated and finishing up her last days of school. Sunshines outside my window mocking me to come out from behind this screen and bask in its glory. I’m waiting for 6pm sharp so that I can call work to get news of my fate for the evening. Seeing as how it’s the start of a three-day weekend and it’s Art Walk in Pioneer Square tonight I most likely wont have to show my face in there until tomorrow. In which case I’ll be going to Pioneer Square myself to see Nicks booth and relax and breath in the last breaths on this gorgeous day.

I haven’t been in any shape to update lately because since I’ve been back from Maui I’ve been connected at the hip with Kale. I’m blown away constantly on how damn good a person can make me feel simply by just being around. Yesterday we layed out under the sun on the roof of the garage and read books to each other; listening to music and watching an Eagle get bullied by crows. My tummy was crippling me so he gave me the princess treatment; rubbing ice where it hurt till it melted and kept the Pabst’s coming. When we had gotten enough sun we walked down to Anthony’s on the water and had a delicious meal (including fresh oysters, yum!). We went and rented True Blood from the store to satisfy my new addiction. And watched that until trotting down the alley to the Unicorn Tavern to meet Monica, and she brought Dan with her and we all had ourselves some beer and played ourselves some pool. Monica and Kale won twice (no thanks to Monica though, haha)

brb I have to call.

Annnnnnnd I don’t have to go in. SUPRISE!

Okie dokie, I will continue updating later, I have a lot of important news. some good some bad. For now I’m getting up out of this scorching hot apartment.

Ta ta.