Hi guys, sorry it’s been a minute. I haven’t found much time or oomph to update these past few months. Much has changed; I’m back in school, the leaves are changing colors summer is as gone as ever, I’m in a new apartment, I’m eating meat, and for the first time in a very long time, I’m single. With nobody waiting on my horizon, keeping me company, I’ve pretty much affirmed my independence and set it high in my sights to be all I need. Bring my expectations down a little bit, for everything. It’s been a struggle. For as far back as I can remember I’ve been chasing time, getting ahead of myself and setting myself (and others) up for disaster.
Time has flown past me in the blink of an eye. I feel like I just celebrated new years last weekend…but it’s just around the corner again.
I’m running out of time to update and I’m doing my best to scratch your guys’ itch for wondering what is going on with me.
First things first, A: Suzye? Randy? I have a car and I intend to use it to come see you as soon as possible. I miss you like mad, and a serious catch-up date is in order, and I need to see your new pad!
B: To all my lovelies that are reading this…I need you. Friendship is something that I need now more than ever before; I need to be close with you guys so I don’t lose my freaking mind with all this change that’s afoot.
So there’s that. I can’t settle down enough to make a more strapping post, I’ll give it another shot later.
I have been getting the urge to pinch myself often, to make sure I’m actually awake and not just having very convincing dream. I’ve wished for summer for what seems for so long that I hardly can remember a time when I wasn’t wishing I could just fast forward to right now. With the 4th of July staring right at me from around the corner; Suzye and Randy and Nick all together living in Gig Harbor; Bekah’s graduated and finishing up her last days of school. Sunshines outside my window mocking me to come out from behind this screen and bask in its glory. I’m waiting for 6pm sharp so that I can call work to get news of my fate for the evening. Seeing as how it’s the start of a three-day weekend and it’s Art Walk in Pioneer Square tonight I most likely wont have to show my face in there until tomorrow. In which case I’ll be going to Pioneer Square myself to see Nicks booth and relax and breath in the last breaths on this gorgeous day.
I haven’t been in any shape to update lately because since I’ve been back from Maui I’ve been connected at the hip with Kale. I’m blown away constantly on how damn good a person can make me feel simply by just being around. Yesterday we layed out under the sun on the roof of the garage and read books to each other; listening to music and watching an Eagle get bullied by crows. My tummy was crippling me so he gave me the princess treatment; rubbing ice where it hurt till it melted and kept the Pabst’s coming. When we had gotten enough sun we walked down to Anthony’s on the water and had a delicious meal (including fresh oysters, yum!). We went and rented True Blood from the store to satisfy my new addiction. And watched that until trotting down the alley to the Unicorn Tavern to meet Monica, and she brought Dan with her and we all had ourselves some beer and played ourselves some pool. Monica and Kale won twice (no thanks to Monica though, haha)
brb I have to call.
Annnnnnnd I don’t have to go in. SUPRISE!
Okie dokie, I will continue updating later, I have a lot of important news. some good some bad. For now I’m getting up out of this scorching hot apartment.
I have always expected you to be here. I have always pictured you there,
when I get married, To know my children, To talk me through things[like this]. like you have been you always know what to say ....how to make me feel so much better.
I have always wanted to be just like you. so positive, such a warm, bright person.
being able to see the good in jsut about everything
you are the best person i have ever known
I need you here with me in this life...I never want to say goodbye
So! One more week of school! Next week I will be doing one (take home) Logic final, one Environmental Science final and 2 math finals (one for each module I passed this quarter) I was supposed to have 6 modules passed by this time but at the beginning of the quarter I was stuck in review for 2 weeks and didn’t get any new things covered, then the next week I had my mind on other things but school (the final weeks till’ my boyfriend finally came home from Alaska) and then my attention was diverted once again when he left again. BUT my attendance is worth one test grade so I’ll be walking away from Modular MathLab this quarter with no lower than a 2.5 (which I can live with). My logic Exam is already in my possession and I will be studying the new chapters and working through that this weekend. I also acquired my study guide for ENV so I can study for that too. My teachers going to a wedding and we don’t have class tomorrow or Monday. So that gives me some extra time to finish the energy project that I haven’t even looked at. Sigh~ I am so happy that this time next week I will be taking the last of my tests and I’ll be completely packed for Hawaii! Also next weekend Suzye and Randy are having a yard sale in OLY (and a clothing exchange?!) so I have been going through all my clothes (I think I tried on everything I own yesterday!) and decided to get rid of a lot of stuff. I was doing all of this while waiting to find out if I’d be going into work at some point. I got pretty offended when I finally did call in, and my manager told me, with a tone that made it seem as though I was bothering her, to call in at 6 (I called @ 5:30) so as much as I know this sucks, I hung up and called again in a half hour. Mind you that this whole time I could be out on the beach right down the street playing volleyball in the hot (90 degrees!) sun and drinking ice cold Coronas’[ with lime] not flipping worrying about being clean and dressed in case they do say to come in. GRR. So when I called back even more annoyed sounding on the other end of the line she barked “you can have the night of thanks!” and hung up. I had tears in my eyes I was so pissed off. I feel bad I even vented to Kale about it for a while this morning instead of telling him sweet, cheerful things. It’s Thursday, they are usually busy, but we’ll see. I hate waiting around. And if I was making a lot of money as it was during the weekdays I would be a little less ruffled about having to refuse making plans because of an off-chance I might have to go to work, but I don’t make enough money to just swallow the stupid idea that I’m essentially on-call all day long. My apartment is SO HOT, like a steam room. We got Sammy Shaved into a lion (we do this when he gets really matted or when it gets hot) right in the nick of time too, I would feel so awful if poor Sam had to bake in the hot sun under a thick matted fur coat in the 100+ degree apartment! Houston’s been under my bed all day, and Jade is at the bottom of her cage (cooler). I am not complaining about the heat, I love this! But I would rather be out in it all day rather than being stuck waiting to call someone who isn’t the least bit appreciative of the complete and utter shittiness of the whole calling-in business. So I’m still at school. Its air condition in this library, I just did about 2 hours of math. I’m going to post this and then watch some fun things on youtube... This one takes the cake… I am SO STOKED to see New Moon.
I got kind of depressed when I watched the MTV Movie award where Kristen Stewart and Rob Pattinson won best kiss…they all pretended like they were going to passionately make out on stage for their acceptance speech…then she was like,“SIKE!” what a lame ass!!! When (my other boyfriend) Ryan Gosling and Rachel McAdams one best kiss in 2008 for their earth shattering kiss in The Notebook they went up there and gave us a show!
Now i understand that that's hard to beat...But COME ON! This(?): http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BG3NxI7Oi2Y (embedding was disabled by request...not surprised)
