Arggggh!

Right, so before I freak out and cry..I'll calmly explain how i just wrote a 3 page post in a word document and cut (not copied) the whole thing to paste here. It's really funny (not ha ha funny) that toward the end of the short novel of explaining what I did all of winter break, I even said something along the lines one "I am drinking the most amazing tea right now, I am make-believing that it's giving me super powers, and I must say it's working because I'm multi-tasking like a mofo right now!"...etc.

So I don't know how I let this happen but while multi tasking I copied something else onto the invisible *clip board* where my short novel was cut too... and I lost the whole damn thing! Wow. I don't feel like re-typing it it will just piss me off and you won't enjoy reading my angrily re-writen story I lost to the computer. But also somewhere in there I said something along the lines of.. "All is good though, I feel an exciting fire inside and it would take a horrifying shit storm to upset me right now..." I think that was right after complaining that today was supposed to be my first day back to school, but they dropped me from all my classes because I didnt meet the deadline to pay tuition. So there ya go. Sorry guys you can't read my impossibly long blog about what i did over break, deal with it. But i did re register and got all my classes, Biology is full though, but im goin to show up to class anyways and beg the instructor to overload me.

I did get my Camera that I left at Suzye's after new years, and she mailed it back to me (all this previously, needlessly explained) so I have a buncha photos to share :)

P.s. My camera took a spill when I was sledding, and now my camera takes dark..one-corner-missing pictures.. but hey, they're photos!

ok, over n' out.

By the way you should know that the theme of NYE was freaks and geeks.. so it's cool.

Okkk. I should go sleep so I can wake up for the official first day of my Winter quarter 09!!

(p.s. I can't figure out how to post photos..and have captions unter them....so gather what you will without my imput) ;)

Peace!

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I resolve to:_______in 2009

Let life happen, and meditate.
Exercise daily and be healthier (drink less, smoke less, eat less, fast more).
Get an ipod and expand my musical horizons.
Work more hrs, start working at Revo?!
Get great grades and learn a bunch. Read.
Photography. (Camera, prints, etc.)

:)

I've been so hard on myself lately. Always stressing about decisions I don't really need to make right now. I want to knock that off, because stress stinks.
I really only need to worry about 2 things (well maybe three): School and Work/Money (and maybe art, it’s in parenthesis because it may not be as crucial as the first two)
Everything else is so momentary, so volatile and impulsive! I feel so much strain and tension with respect to my social life and trying to make every one (and myself) happy. I wonder sometimes if I’m the only one with this odd anxiety: specifically missing so many (sometimes bizarre and contradictory) people at one time. Longing to be surrounded by so many people, and feel certain previously felt energy and vigor; I may be looking for the word “nostalgia”(but I’m not fully content with it). I’m inundated with constant irritating nostalgia. It may also be a fear of losing people, losing touch with people flat out sucks. There are some bonds that are important for me to maintain maximum contact and spending the most time with. My siblings for example, I don’t want to be an absent big sister, I want my little sibs to trust me and I want to know them and watch them grow. I need a car to do this, so there’s one more resolution. I miss so much about certain times of my life, and I find myself getting pummeled with these depressing thoughts and mind fucks A LOT. I don’t want to be mindlessly self indulgent either. I want to write like this more. I feel like im talking in code, realizing that what I’m saying most likely doesn’t make any sense to any one but me. But it’s post like these that I really like coming back to later and reading, kind of studying myself, to see how much my opinion has changed or stayed the same. Comparing perspectives on certain random things. Any Way, man I sure turned that into a friggin ramble, I have high hopes for the new year, I want to look back to this day next year and say to myself, “fuck yea, I rule! Look at everything I’ve accomplished this in 2009, GO ME!”
Ok I’m beat. And I’m not making sense!
And I can’t get Akon’s song “I wana make love na na na” out of my head, no matter what I do. It’s SO catchy.

By the way, here our Freak and Geek picture<3

And here is Pickels! Sargent Meowinstien!

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Happy 2009

I had a wonderful new years with some of the best people in the whole world. I am so satisfied. Time to come back from Neverland. Now I'm off to work. God damn I didn't want to leave suzye's I coulda ate brownies and watched Freaks N Geeks all day long. My stomach is SO sore from the butterflies. Oh butterflies.




P.s. I left my camera at Suzyes, so no pics until I can get it back. :(

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I'm back!

Well Max and I got stuck up North at Dad's because we had to turn around to get his silly book that he got for Christmas.. He hasn't even read a book in well...forever! All of asudden we are stuck in a patch of snow.. he overhearts his engine, thermostat whatever it was we stayed at dads.. Not that thats a bad thing.. we never get to be with dad, we played a lot of nintendo wii and drank hot buttered rum while cracking all the rest of the leftover christmas eve crab, talking about my life and how chaotic it's been since I've left. Dad recognized what happened to me as a kid for the first time verbally.. and I wish i wasn't so drunk otherwise i would have been able to expand and heal. Anyway, finally max and I got outta there yesterday the nieghbors and dad all helped us shovel a path 50 ft from the bottom of dads driveway to the road.. then we drove his car overheating suposedly to the dealership.. max told me i was giving him attitude when i told him after the 3rd worng exit that we should maybe call the dealership. well I was skating thin on making it back to west seattle to make it to work.. luckily the dealership was ready for us and had the loaner ready to go.. so i made it with time to spare. I have mabe the worst day at the bar ever ill talk more about that later.. im heading north to see bekah and give her things.. SUZYE call me about out PLANNNNNS! xoxox

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Merry Christmas.

Well we got a white Christmas! Dad and mad are currently shoveling his ford F150 out of the ditch in the driveway.. i think i could be stuck here for a nother night unless we want to shevel Max's lowerd VW Jetta GLI outta the snow...:( and be we I definately mean me. I have the verizon network but they dont follow me out to my dads house sadly. I have no cell service but every once in a while I'll get a text or qa notification of a new voicelmail.. it's okay though..i guess.i just spent 2 hrs playing nintendo WII tennis adn bowling and my shoulder is FUCKED up but i want to keep on playing.last night was fun I'll write about it and submit photos later on. xo

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Flurries!

I see nothing but white outside.

pretty groovy!

I got to see Suzye and Randy last night, I miss them so much. Luis came and Kendall did too!! I gave Randy his Christmas gift, I wish i had brought my camera because it looks SO perfect on him. heheh.

I work today.. it will be an adventure getting there. BRRRR I'll take photos of my winter wonderland and share them later. OOH I have some time.. I should upload my pictures from spending the night with Zak and Monica the other night.. Zak and I had a dance off on a patch of black ice! But I'm sipping hot cocoa and watching Christmas shows with ma. so we shall see.

xoxox have a great day and stay warm!

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HAPPY lateBIRTHDAY KALE!

I hope your birthday was even half as amazing as you are!!!xoxox

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