I resolve to:_______in 2009
Thursday, January 1, 2009
Let life happen, and meditate.
Exercise daily and be healthier (drink less, smoke less, eat less, fast more).
Get an ipod and expand my musical horizons.
Work more hrs, start working at Revo?!
Get great grades and learn a bunch. Read.
Photography. (Camera, prints, etc.)
:)
I've been so hard on myself lately. Always stressing about decisions I don't really need to make right now. I want to knock that off, because stress stinks.
I really only need to worry about 2 things (well maybe three): School and Work/Money (and maybe art, it’s in parenthesis because it may not be as crucial as the first two)
Everything else is so momentary, so volatile and impulsive! I feel so much strain and tension with respect to my social life and trying to make every one (and myself) happy. I wonder sometimes if I’m the only one with this odd anxiety: specifically missing so many (sometimes bizarre and contradictory) people at one time. Longing to be surrounded by so many people, and feel certain previously felt energy and vigor; I may be looking for the word “nostalgia”(but I’m not fully content with it). I’m inundated with constant irritating nostalgia. It may also be a fear of losing people, losing touch with people flat out sucks. There are some bonds that are important for me to maintain maximum contact and spending the most time with. My siblings for example, I don’t want to be an absent big sister, I want my little sibs to trust me and I want to know them and watch them grow. I need a car to do this, so there’s one more resolution. I miss so much about certain times of my life, and I find myself getting pummeled with these depressing thoughts and mind fucks A LOT. I don’t want to be mindlessly self indulgent either. I want to write like this more. I feel like im talking in code, realizing that what I’m saying most likely doesn’t make any sense to any one but me. But it’s post like these that I really like coming back to later and reading, kind of studying myself, to see how much my opinion has changed or stayed the same. Comparing perspectives on certain random things. Any Way, man I sure turned that into a friggin ramble, I have high hopes for the new year, I want to look back to this day next year and say to myself, “fuck yea, I rule! Look at everything I’ve accomplished this in 2009, GO ME!”
Ok I’m beat. And I’m not making sense!
And I can’t get Akon’s song “I wana make love na na na” out of my head, no matter what I do. It’s SO catchy.
Exercise daily and be healthier (drink less, smoke less, eat less, fast more).
Get an ipod and expand my musical horizons.
Work more hrs, start working at Revo?!
Get great grades and learn a bunch. Read.
Photography. (Camera, prints, etc.)
:)
I've been so hard on myself lately. Always stressing about decisions I don't really need to make right now. I want to knock that off, because stress stinks.
I really only need to worry about 2 things (well maybe three): School and Work/Money (and maybe art, it’s in parenthesis because it may not be as crucial as the first two)
Everything else is so momentary, so volatile and impulsive! I feel so much strain and tension with respect to my social life and trying to make every one (and myself) happy. I wonder sometimes if I’m the only one with this odd anxiety: specifically missing so many (sometimes bizarre and contradictory) people at one time. Longing to be surrounded by so many people, and feel certain previously felt energy and vigor; I may be looking for the word “nostalgia”(but I’m not fully content with it). I’m inundated with constant irritating nostalgia. It may also be a fear of losing people, losing touch with people flat out sucks. There are some bonds that are important for me to maintain maximum contact and spending the most time with. My siblings for example, I don’t want to be an absent big sister, I want my little sibs to trust me and I want to know them and watch them grow. I need a car to do this, so there’s one more resolution. I miss so much about certain times of my life, and I find myself getting pummeled with these depressing thoughts and mind fucks A LOT. I don’t want to be mindlessly self indulgent either. I want to write like this more. I feel like im talking in code, realizing that what I’m saying most likely doesn’t make any sense to any one but me. But it’s post like these that I really like coming back to later and reading, kind of studying myself, to see how much my opinion has changed or stayed the same. Comparing perspectives on certain random things. Any Way, man I sure turned that into a friggin ramble, I have high hopes for the new year, I want to look back to this day next year and say to myself, “fuck yea, I rule! Look at everything I’ve accomplished this in 2009, GO ME!”
Ok I’m beat. And I’m not making sense!
And I can’t get Akon’s song “I wana make love na na na” out of my head, no matter what I do. It’s SO catchy.
By the way, here our Freak and Geek picture<3
And here is Pickels! Sargent Meowinstien!
