Happy Thanksgiving everyone!
I just got in from work. I had to hustle home from Portland this morning on a Greyhound; I went down there on Monday after class to see Stephanie for her Birthday. We just staying in, Drank beer and sang songs, ate pizza and ice cream. It was basically the laziest day ever yesterday.

Tomorrow morning Maxwell’s picking mom and I up and going to Grandma’s @ Seattle Cancer Care. Yeah, I know I said she was cancer-free and going home.. But she got an infection and has to stay longer. I think that’s what she wants though. I went and spent the night with her a couple weeks ago, and that was when she new she was going to be leaving the fallowing Friday (she was even packing). Well she was telling me she was scared, worried that she can’t function well enough, that she gets confused. I felt bed, but I hope she’s not just anticipating her falling ill to make it so she’s unable to go home. Anyways, I hope tomorrow’s fun; mom and g-ma fight all the time. They had quite a falling out just about who was cooking the turkey and where. Max and I are leaving at aroud 4 to go up north and see the Siblings, Dad and Cheryl. This will be fun, I miss my sisters and brothers all the time.

I went to the Doctor for my itchy skin last weekish.. I don’t think I wrote about it (kind of embarrassing). I thought it was an allergic reaction to mom’s cat’s and their stupid fleas. But Vanessa told me that everyone at her school had been getting scabies, and I had been hanging with her and her friend at my apt I while ago, And her friend had it. They all got creams and it cleared right up. The Doc gave me 2 type of cream, and anti itch and allergy pills……AND NOTHING’S WORKING! If anything it worse! It’s the most frustrating thing in the world. Every inch of my body itching all the time, sometimes more than others, resulting in my scratching, hard, sometimes not stopping till I’m bleeding. You can probably imagine how this is leaving my skin. I look and feel terrible ladies and gentlemen. I’m going to get more cream, talk to the doc again, pay out the ass for something that might not work, because I don’t have Health insurance. Writing about this is making me cry. I am SO frustrated, I’m through being embarrassed, I’m sincerely concerned, it hurts! FUCK THIS!

Sorry.I itch real bad.

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Just a Quickie

I realize I haven’t been as fruitful as I would like to be in this blog, but to be perfectly honest, I really only want to write my upbeat cheery happenings and attitudes on here. Reason being that that’s what I wish to project myself as (upbeat). I also don’t want the wrong people to get a hold of this, and have there feelings hurt. I have a heavy heart and head lately. Not well able to pinpoint the catalyst motivating this weakened mind state as of late, I am exhausted. I miss my god, the sun. I miss good friends. I can’t think of anything I want more than to be in a room full of people who love each other smiling, drinking and dancing.

I feel like…I’m missing out, almost like I’m running out of time.

It could very well be.

I digress

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My name ain't Bic, but I keep That flame

I had a pretty good weekend! I had nothing planned at first, just reading up for finals week, and trying to program impossible math formulas in my brain so I can take the exams without cheating. To my delight I woke up to sunshine on Saturday morning, so I proposed that mom and I go downtown to Pike Place Market, and get breakfast and walk around. We both strapped our cameras on and set out. We went to this really good café for lunch, the name is escaping me, and they had an incredible organic juice bar. Yum yum. We walked around and around, through big crowds of people took cool photos and bought some cool things :)

-so.onfridayimissedbassnectarbecauseimnottwentyoneandthatbrokemyhearttheend.

We were on the way back when Max called and asked if I wanted to go to a movie!! It was just what I wanted to hear, I was kind of feeling in the dumps, and hanging out with my big bro is usually the antidote. So we went to dinner, mom came too, at Cactus on Alki, it was fun, my spirits lifted. Of course they get tasty beverages and I have to get the virgin lavender sour, but come the end of February, I will be having Mojitos and dirty martinis in PUBLIC!
Max and I dropped momma off at home and we went to catch the 10 o clock flick of Eagle Eye, the new-ish Shia Lebough movie. I loved it. I had to pee the WHOLE time, but I couldn’t leave, there was always something MAJOR happening. Oh and he got us some Clamato and Budwieser that we smuggled in, mwahaha. Sneeeeeky.

Well this week my group presents our Michael Jackson report. 50 minutes explaining to the class why MJ was the most influential pop artist of his generation (cake!) I have come to love Michael Jackson even more than I did already; I love sitting and watching MJ videos and being able to say I’m doing homework. My group’s been kind of a pain but I’m not making a big deal out of it because I know we’ll get a good grade regardless of whether they’ll listen to my ideas to spice up the dull power point.
I get to work the next two Wednesdays for Quinn, so her and Dean can go outta town. That’s exciting, on account of I’ve been spending way too much money lately and need to stop. So some extra hours will help pull me from my splurging hangover.

OH.my.GOD. I’m so excited I can’t even begin to express, for the Twilight movie, it’s coming to a theater near me on Friday. Suzye and I, and our moms…I think, are going to see it! Hell YES.


Welp that’s all I got, so talk to you later!

Peace.

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The times they are a changin.

Man, yesterday was weird, a real life Wacky Wednesday. I semi-woke-up to my alarm and immediately turned it off, shrugging off my 8am math lab (so easy to do). I got up in time to make it to R&R History, then went to the 12 o’ clock math lab to make up for my morning attendance. I was kind-of, I don’t know, bewildered all day long. I think that’s what it was. Since I left my bed I had this hazy remote panic floating around me. I haven’t felt that way in a long time, and I was panicking because I remembered this feeling, vaguely resembling a meek depression. I walked through school like a zombie, and didn’t speak at all other than to thank my math professor for her signature on my make-up attendance form. It could be because I was at the mall with Bekah the day before and celebrated Veterans Day by spending WAY too much money on 2 boxes of dead sea manicure sets because the guy hypnotized me in the mall. He first put some yummy smelling lotion on the top of my hand, once that was done he reeled me in closer, asking if he can see my hand. He had a sexy Brazilian accent and he made very startling eye contact. As he buffed my middle finger nail, he explained how good this was and yaddah yah. Finally he showed my silky shiny nail, in which I could see my reflection in, and told me he’d give me the set (the yum lotion, magical buffer, nail file, and cuticle oil) for half the regular price! I was reluctant…and this he could sense. He picked up another box, and said, “okay, because I like you, and I know you really enjoy this product, I’ll give you a second set, absolutely free!” I hung my head and accepted, he got me, $75.00 later. I have two sets of incredible nail buffers. Come get a manicure.
I also spent a lot of money on food, I bought Bekah lunch and dinner. I got a new nose ring and a belt. Spending money is stressful since I work only one day a week, I REALLY have to not do that anymore. Especially with Christmas coming, and so many friends and family!

I’ve been scratching the first layer of my flesh off for the last few weeks, and it is getting progressively worse. I have red welts and bumps all over my legs, and I’m positive that the reason is my mom’s cat’s flea crisis. She denies this accusation and tells me it’s a psychological induced rash, that due to stress I itch so relentlessly. I’m going to the Doctor tomorrow after school and will get a blood test done to get to the bottom of this.

So, anyway, I wasn’t able to fall asleep till’ 2am this morning, and forgot I had my phone on vibrate, so instead of waking to Buffalo Soldier, I awoke to my phone vibrating on the ground. I drew three whole pages in my sketch book, wild images! I will scan and share them asap.
I got to go kick it with my big brother and Brett the other day (Monday) and we jammed out and they coerced me into trying something I thought looked especially revolting. (Budweiser & Clamato) Enjoyed it!

Max came over to participate, and lend a hand in the War of the Flies. I was lying in bed watching Veronica Mars season 3 (RIP) and I looked over into Jade’s cage, and notice she had flies all over her! It was horrible; she looked like one of those African children with flies in their poor little eyes. So I got all the fly swatters, took the doors off and went to freaking nuts! I was sweating and listening to my Pandora ‘The Who’ radio station. I was experiencing serial killer tactics, and decided max needed to come over and get in on this, I called him and he came over and we killed SO MANY god damn flies, and cleaned Jades cage. And then went to hang out at his placey. Very

nice

I'm off to work! xoxox

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Goodmorning World!

Grandma and I had a good visit on Friday. I took a bus to the Pete Gross house and called her to see how the heck I get in. She was thrilled when she answered the phone and told me she was looking right at me. There was a camera right above the door that all the tenants can watch on channel 62 to make sure the person they are buzzing in is really who they say they are! Very neat. So I waved at grandma excitedly, her excitement got me thrilled to be seen, so I blew her a kiss (and everyone else who was tuned into channel 62 as well) as she buzzed me up.
She was really frazzled, trying to organize her insurance information in her binder full of medical papers when I got there. I felt really bad because I know with all the meds they have her on, it’s hard for her to concentrate. She was trying to describe to me how she was feeling, and I just nodded told her it’s okay. That she shouldn’t worry too much about getting it all organized. I went with her on the Shuttle bus that takes her from her Pete Gross house apt 4 blocks away to the Seattle Cancer Care Allegiance clinic so she could drop off her insurance papers, because she’s being given the green light to go home now. So with this week supposedly being her last week, she’s really nervous to go home, after getting so comfortable here and being taken care of. I feel bad, because I feel like she really doesn’t want to be alone in her little beach house in Gig Harbor. But I know she’ll do great. She’s a strong person, and is the most inspirational being that I’ve even met. She will be fine!
So after we returned from the clinic, Max came and swooped us up and took us to Pacific Place for dinner. That was fun, Grandma absolutely loves seeing max and I, and we don’t get together often enough. We talked about my L&I issues for a bit, and then my schooling, and Max’s career and new love of his life. Grandma is really excited to meet Erin, Max’s new Girlfriend who lives in Hawaii and invited her to come to thanksgiving with us at Uncle Bills. Oh me oh my, Max is SO in love with this girl. I’m very happy for him, but skeptical as well, because I’m just worried he’ll get his heart broken somehow.
I have a lot to do this week with respect to school. My group in Rock and Roll History is supposed to be more advanced in a project due in 9 days about Michael Jackson and his influence on the world. It’s an hour long presentation and we haven’t gotten anything done past the outline! I’m sure it won’t be hard to get it done with the time we have left, but that’s only because of the fact that our instructor is lenient and as long as we make sense we will get a good grade. Most of the students in the class speak English as a 2nd language and hardly know how to comprehend the class as a whole.
I’m struggling with my math class. Something about math and I just don’t compute. I was taking an exam last week and I was using a multiplication table to help me save time and energy (the class is 45 minutes and that’s not a lot of time for me to get the exam completed) and a calculator... the instructor told me that I’m not allowed to use these tools(I knew). I was frustrated and told him that I’m slightly dyslexic and have trouble computing problems in my head without help from these tools. He just smiled at me and said, “what if you go to the store and have want to buy 3 cans of soup for $.80 each, how are you going to know how much money you need.” I’m positive this is the dumbest example he could have come up with, and I automatically took a sarcastic tone and told him that each are under a dollar, and if I have at least 3 buck’s I’ll have enough money.. GAHHH! He always has snot dripping down his top lip, out of his hairy nostrils, dripping into his mouth and has a really creepy throaty voice. My math teacher bothers me, needless to say. But to be honest, I’ve had a similar description for all of my past math teachers, If only I could have an extremely attractive math instructor--maybe I’ll be more likely to fill in the gaps and learn how to be better at it. Haha.

OH! And some exciting news! We’re moving into a 2 bedroom next month! I get a room! My own space! SO excited! AHHH

Have a good Monday every one!!

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Update

Happy Friday!

Well I haven’t updated in a little while, school has got me so tired lately! Plus I got the third season of Veronica Mars :)
So the weekend trip to Portland to see Chris Cornell was a success! I got to see beautiful Naomi!! I love her so much its ridiculous. I had a horrible attitude and headache the whole way down to Portland but as soon as I saw Naomi running toward me I felt infinitely better! We got to be right in the front of the stage :) so cool. I had a little bit of a headache but I toughed it out and had fun.

Welp, I have an exam on the Brittish invasion and Surf Rock next period so I have to go cram in some last minute notes!

I get to spend tha night with Grandma Sharon tonight! An update on her: CANCER FREE!!!!

Thats right, Grandmas almost on day 100 after her Marrow transplant and she's doing great! she will be home by Thanksgiving, where we will be together at her beach house eating and loving and laughing! I am so thankful my amazing Grandmother has beat her awful cancer! WOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOOOOOOOOOH!

Have a GREAT weekend everyone!!

Much love!

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The end of anticipation arrives tomorrow

There glimpses of light through the foggy haze of murky gray--
People are here. Eating food and having conversations. I keep on finding myself just standing in the midst of the madness out there --just standing with the blankest look on my face.

----fin.

Some good words to read/look at.

By the time you swear you're his,

Shivering and sighing,

And he vows his passion is infinite, undying

-Lady make note of this:One of you is lying.

- - - -Dorothy Parker "Unfortunate Coincidence"

I have always hated being a liar.


- wear your best suit.

if yor going to sanfransisco

Today I'm feeling _________!

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