Why oh why?

I fell asleep at about 12:30am after reading 3 chapter of Eclipse and half a chapter from my History or Rock & Roll text. But this morning I woke up at 3am, went pee, and all these self-conscious thoughts, worries and stresses flooded my brain. I was thinking about the people at Luna Park, how I had accidentally opened my big mouth and shit-talked one of the women there (I'm sure by now it's gotten back to her) She deserved it, but I never want to be the one that is gossiping, and venting aimlessly to people who I don't know or care about. So I digress, from this day on I will not speak of negative things to anyone, I will try my best to be peaceful and pleasant no matter how I really feel. Some people are just so good a blending in and not letting what's bothering them effect their overall mood. It will take some effort, but I need to try to not be so sensitive.

I left my camera in the girls car that drove me home the other night, I am pretty sure. And I really want it back. but P.j. wont respond to any of my calls or texts. LAME. I have to go to Luna today after school sometime anyhow and pick up my 2nd to last paycheck. I shudder when I think about all the bad energy there. I don't know why I'm such an emotional mess right now, I can't believe I couldn't fall back asleep due to worrying what people think about me. Stop being so sensitive Sydney!

I'm going to stop freaking out now :)


Bekah and I are going for Sushi and a movie on Friday! I can't wait. we're going to see Nick and Norah's' Infinite Playlist! It's got the cute boy from Juno (Michael Cera).







I think by then I'll have finished the 3rd book in the Twilight Saga, Eclipse and be able to move on the the 4th, Breaking Dawn! I love that I am so easily amused when it comes to love stories. I wish I could fall asleep and just dream myself into the book. I want to be bella, her life is so exciting. There's really never a dull moment, She's in love with a vampire, that is begging her to marry him so he can change her into a vampire and they live happily ever after for all eternity as immortals. AND have a young Werewolf in love with you, AND be hunted by a vengeful vampire who's mate was murdered by her hunky vampire lover. ah god. I'm loving geeking out to this. I am excited for the movie to come out next month. I hope its not disappointing, as movies tend to be after reading the book in all its glory. I want to get a big ol clan together who loves twilight, like Bekah and Suzye and Bekahs lil sis Clara, My lil sis Kyndall, Toni from my work.. all my buddies that are in just as deep as I am and dress up and go to the midnight showing of the movie when it comes out! :) Ahh. I am starving for some romance. Maybe I just need to suck it up and become an actress so I can live out these fantasies.

Now I'm all floaty.

Good day

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