A breath of fresh air!

I slept so soundly last night, I woke up with just enough time to eat my oats and skip out the door to catch the bus. I wasn't too cold and I am to the very last pages in the book (I'm pacing myself to make it last longer because I have to wait till Friday to get the next one). I was very observant (I just had the hardest time trying to remember what that word was...weird) on the bus this morning, my second full week of fall quarter, and I notice the same people get on every morning, I’ve also noticed three other people so far (not counting me) reading the twilight series (it’s spreading). I watched the Brad Pitt movie, ‘Seven Years in Tibet’, last night. And I loved it. Acting is fascinating! I’m strongly considering taking up theatre as an elective here at school. Just for a taste.

In my History of Rock and Roll class we watched a movie on racism in the south in the 1950’s. The video showed the open casket funeral of Emmitt Till (a 14 year old boy who was beaten beyond recognition and then shot in the head for saying “bye baby” to a white woman in a corner market before integration in 1955 Mississippi-her brother-in law and husband where guilty...but of course they weren’t charged with the murder) I fought to hold back tears. I’m so sensitive. I don’t know if it’s just lately, or if this is just how I am.

I haven’t been single in a while, and I think that, that might have something to do with my insecurity and anxiousness lately. It’s great. I have had a chance to think about me, spend time meditating on what I want and not focusing on making someone else happy to distract myself from that. I’m coming around to myself, and finding focus on what’s important to me, and people who are important to me. All that pish posh at Luna Park, with people testing and trying me, doesn’t matter and I know I shouldn’t let them (or what they might think about me) get to me. Because they really don’t give a shit about me, and why should I care? *smile*

I’m sitting in the Library/computer lab here at school. And there are a bunch of loud boys (G’s..?) across the table, talking about MySpace, and saying shit a lot, I happened to check my MySpace mail roughly 3 minutes later, and there was a message that said “what it do shawtayy hi hi hi..halla at yuh boy what up dreads” and I looked up and one of the boys waved at me, grinning from ear to ear. He had a long heavy-looking silver chain with some symbol I didn’t recognize, huge diamond squares on each earlobe, a baggy white tee and a doo rag. I love White Center. There must be a lot of alcoholics that go to school here, because the last two days here in the library I have caught random whiffs of people who sit next-to or across from me and it’s almost like a wasted man breathing 3 inches from my face at the bar. Hmm

Well I’m eager to go home and make a second post. It will be a photo post because Suzye just posted some photos from EmergeNsee! I love looking at photos, so I will post some for you all to enjoy, where ever you all are in the world!

XOXO

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